Living Life with the End in Sight Q1

My family and I are lucky enough to have found an amazing church. My husband grew up in the same church his whole life and my family was more “twice a year” church goers. I had attended the same church with my husband since middle school up until last year when we decided as a family that it was time to move one. Until we arrived at Momentum I never really understood what it was like to TRULY enjoy church. I look forward to Pastor Ross’s message every week and even listen to them on my IPod in the car.

 

Pastor Ross has been doing a series entitled isight over the last couple of weeks focusing on living your life while keeping your focus on God. Last week he sent everyone home with some questions to answer regarding Living Your Life with the End in Sight. I really think that the questions he is asking are important in moving forward in your life instead of concentrating on the past.

 

SO

 

For the next 5 weeks I am going to be using my blog to answer these questions. I am SUPER nervous about doing this because I don’t feel like I have the past to warrant having answers and opinions to these questions…but I think that is kind of the point!

 

Here goes nothing…

 

Proverbs 29:18 If people can’t see what God is doing, the stumble all over themselves; But when they attend to what he reveals, they are most blessed.

 

Q1. What did my life add up to?

 

At the end of my life what do I want people to remember me for? Being a good mom, sister, daughter, friend, CHRISTIAN? Of Course!

 

But what else?

 

I want to start using my past for good and not evil. I beat myself over things that happened YEARS ago. Things that aren’t important anymore and that God has forgiven me for. WHY have I not been able to forgive myself. Why am I still struggling to even type the words here? Most women are their own worst critic.

 

I am tired of stopping myself from doing things because of my past.

 

I am not that person anymore.

 

I feel like I have so much to say that could really help people…but the fear of judgment prevents me from doing that. I was recently reminded that “it is none of my business what other people think about me” but that is so much easier said than done.

 

I want to inspire and help people who are going through the same things I have. Instead of being ashamed I SHOULD be proud! We beat the odds on more than one occasion.

 

Just last week I was moved to tears by another member of my church. I was not there when this happened but I heard about it. He is not only a church member, but he was on staff as well. Instead of hiding his past he stood in front of the entire church and announced it proudly.

 

I want to announce it proudly

 

I’m not proud that it happened but proud that we survived it.

 

Here goes nothing…

 

• My son was born 6 weeks after my wedding.
• My husband is a recovering addict. He has 28 months of recovery. I am so proud of him.
• I spent a good 3 months in a mental institution last summer getting help for the major depression I have been battling my entire life.

 

WOW…that’s it?!

 

In my head the list seemed so much longer.

 

I want to use these experiences to help others. THAT is what I want to do with my life. I really want to share my testimony with teens and pregnant woman. I want to speak with families of addicts and give them the same hope I was given. I want to support other mothers going through the same “sad feelings” that I did. I want to make these topics OK and not taboo.

 

I am thinking I might look into volunteering at a pregnancy center.

 

NOW

 

What about you?

 

What do you want YOUR life to add up to?

 

 

 

You can download the podcast of Pastor Ross Wisemans message I am referring to HERE. You can also follow Momentum Church and Pastor Ross Wiseman on Twitter @momentumchurch and @rosswiseman